~Tera-Earth

Some things just never cease to frustrate me. Looking for the second glove in a pair. Trying to put names and faces together, being expected to remember a relative who you never really met. And in my family, I got alot. But one thing that frustrates me to no end, is my inability to draw.

I can't draw. Well I can to a small degree, but I end up getting frustrated, and just throw the thing away. I was halfway decent when I was younger, and then I went to art school for a year, and I think I actually got worse. Dont know how thats possible, but its true. And now whenever I try to draw, it just doesnt work! And so, I get frustrated, and just scribble over it in anger.

This is bad especially when I'm working on one of my characters. I can see how they look in my head like a 3-D model, but I'm unable to get it out. Most of the time, I have to put them together on doll sites. Sometimes it works, but never really comes close to what I originally saw. Its like a brick wall, and no matter how hard I try to get across it, I keep falling back down, fingers starting to bleed.

My mom keeps telling me to stick with it, and keep trying. And I know. If theres a worse combination in the world than being frustrated and lazy, its being frustrated and a perfectionist. I cant even make one line that I'm usually satisified with! I literally feel like pulling my hair out by the roots sometimes.

I'm better at working with clay, or taking pictures, and some of you are probably wondering why I dont put anything up on here yet. Well its a long story. Although by this time next month, I will have something up. To borrow a phrase from a certain blond and loud ninja, Believe it.